I rode every day and I tried to ride hard. I felt off, but I knew I had Friday to rest. My legs just didn't come around.
It became clear I may as well not even be racing pretty quickly Saturday. I had to quit, had to start reversing my mistake.
I refuse to use being a parent as an excuse. Or the new house and the work that is going along with it. Or the stress at work. None of that is a reason to ride poorly, it's simply that I need to do a better job of analyzing where I am at and rest when that's what I need. Looking back now I've been on the absolute ragged edge since late September. I look at my diary and there were commutes at least once a week where I had a hard time getting home. I needed a full stop. I took some prior to the Filthy 50 since I had a 13 day window with no CX, but it's been far too long since then without real recovery. At the same time I was riding less than I rode last year, or in the spring, or etc... but the point is that is only half or a third of the equation. I had it in my head that I could take a bunch of rest before the season and then push and push. I had a schedule with built in breaks but then when the breaks came I didn't take them.
Next year I will do a better job of balancing this stuff- it's new to me not to sleep 10 hours on my 'off' training days. It's new that I have to not to something else in order to find time to work on my bikes. I'll adapt.
This week I'm not throwing my leg over a bike until Thursday or Friday. Maybe then I'll hop on the Pugnago and just cruise around. I'll race one day this weekend only if I start feeling great- great like I haven't felt since Wednesday the week after Trek CXC. Otherwise I'll be letting it roll all the way into Jinglecross. I'll be ready for Jinglecross.